aKHBAR aNAKdAGANG aSRI aLWYN aZHAR aZRI eZZAHaSYRANI fATIN hIDER jULZ LiANAaSHURA mAIMANAH mALINA m.aRIFF m.rOMEO qASSIDI qASSRINA sULZ zULAZMIE

I'm confused.. Confused with my feelings.. Well, more to having mixed feelings.. M.NUR!!!! U're good in dis bro.. HELP ME!! Ya allah.. Astahfiruallahallazim.. Subahanallah.. How can I like a person wen I onli knew him like less den a week? It's ridiculous.. And it's not the right time for me to fall in love with anyone.. 1st: I'm still stuck in Zul's prison.. Ahahx.. But loike!! 2nd: Even if i'm not wif Zul, I dun tink I'm kinda ready for relationship.. I'm still young.. I still dun even know wads d meaning of true love.. 3rd: The forbia of gettin hurt.. At times, I do wan to hate guys.. But wads the use right? Hook or crook.. I will still b wif dem.. So by hatin dem, wad will I gain?

It's rare for me wen people sae dat dey like me.. As in very much like more den a fren.. Especially guys.. Wen if it were to b a gerl.. I will conferm run away la sia.. U think wad.. I lesbian issit? Walandae.. I had a crush wif a guy from timezone.. Ironically, I get to know him.. We exchange number n everytink.. We sms, talk on the phone and went out together fer a movie or meal.. I cant denied dat he's adorably cute.. Like Amirul.. AwwWw!! *dpt peluk sedap ni*

It's stressful.. Wen 3 guys come to d picture at the same time.. I'm nt playin timer or wadsoeva.. Bt.. I dun noe jz hw to explain..

Khairul still treat me like his gerl.. Which I dun tink we are? I guess.. I'm kinda still wif Zulfikar.. Even my close fwens are mocking me wif him.. *seandai cinta itu buta* N I'm havin fantasy wif Riz.. Argh!!! *aku STRESS* I jz one prince charming.. Nt more.. [Lelaki leh kahwin 4, but perempuan tak leh ader lebih dari satu.. STRESS.. Leh masuk mental hospital cam ni] Serious.. Tak cayer.. CubA!!

Juz a random cofession..

1: I'm not cute
2: I'm not pretty (inside & outside)
3: I'm evil
4: I dun haf a good heart
5: I'm lazy to go to silat training (kiddin..)
6: I got no confidence to compete in IVP
7: I'm nt patience
8: I'm in LOVE wif ZuL
9: I like & mish Riz so mush
10:I cried d whole nite for the past 5 daes

I gt too mush problem to handle.. I wanna share it wif sumbody.. Whom I can trust so mush wif my heart & soul.. Bt I jz dun noe how share my problems.. I feel lyk dyin.. I guess if I were to attempt suicide dis time.. I'll b gone in dis world.. Seriously!! I haf attempt it 2 times.. Bt I can consider I'm lucky to b alive.. However, I wont do d suicidal thingy.. Cos.. I knew suicide is nt the solution to solve problem.. *ini semuer dugaan Allah*

Ya allah.. I'm sick again..I'm NOT gg to c d doctor.. NEVER!!!

Btw, Ikhsan was online jz nw.. Bt we din talk.. I tink gt sumtink wrong wif d comp or he din wan to tok to me.. [sedih sey]

Klah.. Go to go.. Wanna rest.. I nid a good slp..

Time Patrol: 3.15 AM

Hehe.. Dada.. I slp first k.. *nnt Riz marah kalo dpt tau yun lom tido* (wheesh)