Suriyani Saruwan
Known as yuNz
7th October 88
25 Safar 1409
Libra
Republic Polytechnic
School of Information Technology
Diploma in IT Service Management
Part time Sales Asst. & Tutor
Full time Muay Thai Dreamer

Assalamualaikum,

Wad word describe me d best?

You see.. I mean I dun feel any crushes anymore.. I jz dun noe how to describe it.. It's like I dun feel anytink.. Yes, it's scary & freaky.. Nt onli dat, I jz forget how to make me happy.. I jz dun noe d meaning of sad.. Sympathetic? I tink I forget wad dat word means to me.. Haf I go senseless?

Astahfiruallahalazim, I haf gotten bad to worst.. I guess I'm losin my inner emotions.. I admit I mish all d wonderful time when I had dat feelings.. Sharing my mixed emotion wif my "personal" consultant.. I mish d time wen I get excited to c my crushes went online in msn, gave me gdnite msges, accompany dem to sum places - no, nt dat place.. Ya allah.. Ajak teman gi 7-11 ke makan la.. Aper jek fikir sampai ke situ..

Haf I forgot d true meaning of love? Haf I forgot the meaning of friendship? Haf I forgot d responsibilties dat I hold? Ya allah, y does it happen to me? Mayb, it's my mindset.. If it's nt my mindset den y din I b as bubbly like I used to b?

I mish Nashki, I mish Pakcik, I mish Oemor.. I mish u guys.. Bt dats fr my mouth.. Bt my heart? I mean my feelings.. I feel nothing.. WHY? Why din feel anything towards u guys? Haf I lost my inner senses?

My life is dull without missing anyone.. Ok nt onli u three Romeos.. Bt my classmates(former & current), my besties, my mum, my dad n everyone dats around me.. I mish d time wen I get emo-ed.. I mish writin emo-ed phrases.. I mish writin abt dem in my blog.. I mish everything..

So tell me, is dis stages of growin up? Or issit.. Nvm!!

3 mths more Malina is givin birth to a baby boy.. I'm happy fer her.. Cant wait to c her n her baby.. Bt I hate her wen she talks abt death.. I mean it's true we cant predict our death.. Bt you cant jz sae like dat aite? Oh ya, she keep on buggin me to cook fer her "Lemak ikan bawal" I dun mind lah.. Bt she wants me to cook dat dish.. Like d time she tasted last time.. Wanna hear d story.......

Dat time, my freezer was full of fishes (maklum org kasi) So I decided to cook "Lemak Ikan Bawal" lah.. Surprisingly, dat dish turn to b different.. Well, it's not dat I'm a bad cook or wad.. Bt the taste is different.. Instead of havin d taste of d fish.. It taste like prawn.. Ya, u can sae it's a unique dish.. Bt masya allah, org tu mengandung.. Aku tak nak dier kepunan.. Mampos aku..