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Monday, January 08, 2007, 3:03 PM
Assalamualaikum,
Just not being myself.. It's seems dat my old self is back.. Yeah me?? The quiet me is back.. Haiz.. I dun feel like seein ppl nowadays.. I jz wan to be a tortoise hu hide in its shell.. Hu wan to stay in da shell.. As fer me, I wan to stay at home.. I can't be bother to go out.. I can't be bother to face reality.. I wanna live in my fantasy.. Fantasy of my own..
I mish him and him.. Haiz.. One is away to Tekong.. N d other is just rite in front of me.. Come on yuNz.. Jz forget it.. Dey dun care abt u.. Stop it will u..
As I told Edwin, i'm nt in d mood to go to skool.. Unlike my sem 1 klas.. I lurve attending klas.. Eventhough I purposedly come to skool late.. Oh even if declared myself skool holidae.. Bt dis sem.. Sian ar.. I really feel like going to skool.. Each time, I step my foot into d skool.. N I usually "cabot" klas.. Argh!! Wad happen to u yuNz.. It's so unlike u lar..
Can sumone enlighted me.. Plz.. Gib me a ife.. I'm to weak to carry on wif my life.. I dun feel like doin things.. I dun feel like livin at all.. Opps.. Nt true.. I wan to live.. Haiz.. i'm getiin slower everyday.. Like a snail, a tortoise perharps..
So, frustrated wif myself.. Wen everybody asked me.. Hey, wad happened to u? My common reply will be; I dun noe!! Must be something lar.. I dun noe!! Are u sick? I dun noe!! Da makan? Malas ar nak makan!! Wassup? Nth!! U see; my reply is like so.. so.. DEAD.. *sigh*
Why am I behavin dis wae? Wad happen to u, yuNz? Are u okay? Gosh, I suddenly feel sorry fer myself.. I mean, it's like I have a split personality.. Nah.. I dun tink so.. Dere will onli b one n onli SURIYANI SARUWAN.. *sigh* I jz hope dat dis moody feeling will soon fade off..
To those whom, I din "layan" u guys.. I hope u guys can understand.. It's not dat I purposedly dun wan to tok.. Bt it's like my mouth is too heavy to open.. Sorie guys!!
Love yuNz <3
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