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Tuesday, January 31, 2006, 2:03 PM
Assalamualaikum,
I really don noe who to turn to rite now... I really don... Well at a certain issue, I can't always turn to my mum... I can't always shared my problem wif Mal... Cos I believe her problems are much more tougher to handle den mine... So, I think da onli thing will be expressin to myself, talking and crying... Seriously, dat's wat I'm capable in doin rite now...
Now, it's beginning a new month and I hope I won't fall to anymore MISFORTUNE... I really can't handled da pain, da anger, da stress, EVERYTHING!!!
Staying at home can be really a pain in da ASS... Too much pressure to handle... At this point of time, I really pity my mum... And I guess my sister can't be bother about my mum... She really don... Well, am I dat bad? Frankly speaking, my sister can really HATE ME!! Why? It's basically because:
(a) I get wat I want
(b) I get my freedom at da age of 15 while she's 21
(c) I got my own Hp at da age of 16
IT'S ALL BULLSHIT!! How can she be jealous over a SMALL things... Sometimes, I really HATE HER TO DA CORE... Wat she's capable in doin is saying bad things abt me to people, hurt my BLOODY feelings, acting like a SNORT, and worst still, wishing me BAD LUCK... Well, how HURT can I be?
I'm as her sister trying my FREAKING best here to convince my dad to accept her marriage... And this is all da CREDIT I GET!! FUCK OFF!! For all these yrs, I never get any compliment from her... NOTHING!! WAT KIND OF SISTAR IS SHE??
Talkin abt her really made me want to blow up... As if I want to stab myself to death... I really wonder who will turn up to my PATHETIC funeral... NONE?? Well, I'm not surprise though...
I'm starting to be totally lost control of myself... I can't be bother abt my appearance animore... Am I starting to be a boyish? Nah, I don't tink so...
Oh gosh! Wat is happening to me, man? Am I alrite? Do I need a PSYCHIATRIST or something? And I jus realise dat I'm starting to share my sorrow to my beloved GARFIELD... Every night, my GARFIELD noe how I feel... But too bad lah, GARFIELD cannot reply to me back... How sad? *sobb* (cam bdk2 seh) Tapikn, klau dia bercakap balek kat aku, aku rase aku lari dulu... EEE!! TAKUT!!
Well maybe, in this new month, I should really take care of myself...
(1) Watch wat I eat
(2) Exercise twice every week
(3) Challenge in badminton every afternoon... (whoever is interested, come down to Blk 578 badminton court.. Near Vista point.. HAHA!!)
(4) Drink plenty of water
Den I can be much healthier... Rite? Maintainin a healthy lifestyle... HEHE!! Tah leh ust ke tk??
Okay, got to go.. I think I wrote quite a long essay here... Chao!! Love you guys... Muacks...
Love yuNz <3
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